The Lotus Eater speaks after weeks..

Isn't it strange how one's creative energy comes and goes... ebbs and flows? But such are the tides of life, and a creative soul is often tortured by the coming and going of motivation, energy, and inspiration.

I'm not the most talented at what I do, but I sure do enjoy being creative, and feel spiritually disconnected from myself when I'm not involved with some kind of creative project.

While this blog is silent, I'm working on another project which is important to me, which is my tarot deck in progress, and also wrestling either with lack of motivation, or other problems in my life which need my attention and energy.

I've chosen not to talk about those other issues here in order to avoid complicating them with feelings of being judged, which, though they may be primarily of my own imagination, still bother me. This blog was a place to share this particular project with my mum and sister, because they've moved a distance away from me that's inconvenient to bus or bike to at this point.. and we don't e-mail very frequently or keep in touch through other online networks. Unfortunately my mum has completely ignored the account I set up for her and hasn't commented here, so I assume she doesn't want to make time for this or find it motivating for some reason. I'm disappointed, but I know she is dealing with pressures that are totally lacking in my own life, and because I don't want to be judged, I won't judge. But that's why I have run out of steam somewhat. The original aim, as I did state, was for this blog to be for my irl family and friends. Because that hasn't worked, I've sort of deflated and turned my attention to other things.

I haven't stopped being a creative person though, obviously. And I do appreciate the encouragement people have kindly given me here on Dreamwidth. I've decided not to close this blog down, after some consideration. But I can't guarantee how regularly I'll update, either. I have other issues in my life that are far more pressing than the doll house right now, and making minis can become a bit of an avoidance issue for me... at this time.

Anyway, the aim for the doll house is now to give it this Christmas. :-) My boyfriend has kindly offered to accompany me to my mum's house, and photograph the occasion. I will definitely post those pictures here if all goes to plan. My neice will absolutely adore it, I'm sure. :-) And finally, I will feel as though I've done something right!

Here's a little random pile of stuff I'm doing right now.



I'm sending the tarot jewellery off to friends who have been so supportive to me online over the past year. I hope they like it. The toadstool is a little table for the dollhouse garden. And the head...? Just a little something I found by the side of the road and felt compelled to stuff into my handbag, which I wear slung over my back like a rucksack while riding my bike. Real ladylike...:-p

I found this guy too:



It stank of pee but a tumble through the washing machine made it a satisfactory ornament for my window sill. I think it's cute!

And I'm pretty sure I'll be super-motivated to use up all the fimo I have to get the dollhouse ready for Christmas. Hopefully my fingers will begin to itch soon.

Thank you Zoe, for the inspiration!